كيف حال غيابك How is your absence?

 كيف حالك الان 

كيف حال غيابك 

مالذي تفعلينه الان ؟

انا اعلم انك لن تقولين شيئا 

ليس لانك تتجاهلين

بل لانك غير حاضرة الا في فكري

قلت لاصدقائي  غائبتي  لن تعود 

قلت لهم انني اشتاق وافتقد  غائبتي 

اما  الان  اكتب لك كما افعل هذا دائما

لا ادري لما ينتابني الخوف 

اشعر بالفراغ يتسع 

فراغ موجع وباهت ومقيت 

الجسر الذي تنشئه روحي لم يصل اليك 

اقابل ارواح كثيره وجميلة جدا 

نبتسم ونمضي كتائهين نبحث عن ارواح مألوفة اكثر 

لابد انك في مكان ما من هذا العالم 

كنت اظن ان هذا العالم اصبح قرية 

لكننا محاطون باسوار واسرار

وها انا ارسل سؤالاتي عبر جسور اللانهاية

اسأل عنك واسألك كيف حالك 

ثم اتسائل عاد الغائبون جميعهم 

جميعهعم عادوا وعبروا الينا 

عبر الطرقات المتعبه وعبر الرسائل المنتظره 

لقد عاد بعضهم بينما اجسادنا على الوسائد

كاحلام مبتسمين متحدثين محتظنين طمأنينتنا 

كلهم عادوا الا غائبتي 

في هذا المساء ككل مساء اشعر بك 

ارجوا ان تأتين  ذات  مساء  او ذات ضحى 

ارجوا ان تكونين بخير 

How are you now

How is your absence?

What are you doing now?

I know you won't say anything

Not because you ignore

Rather, because you are only present in my thoughts

I told my friends, “My beloved, my absent woman, will not return.”

I told them that I missed her and missed her

But now I am writing to you as I always do

I don't know why I'm afraid

I feel the emptiness expanding

A painful, dull and disgusting emptiness

The bridge that my soul is building has not reached you

I meet many very beautiful souls

We smile and move on, searching for more familiar spirits

You must be somewhere in this world

I thought this world had become a village

But we are surrounded by barriers and secrets

And here I am sending my questions across the bridges of infinity

Ask about you and ask you how you are doing

Then I wonder if all the absentees have returned

They all came back and crossed over to us

Through the tired roads and through the waiting messages

Some of them came back while our bodies were on the pillows

Like dreams, smiling and speaking, embracing our reassurance

They all returned except for my beloved absent

This evening as every evening I feel you

I hope you come one evening or one morning

I hope you are well

  

ما قبل التيه Before the wandering

قبيل التجوال و  ما قبل التيه 

على  ضوء شمعة , نجم

ينادي بالافق 

عند عتمة النهايات في نفق الليل الطويل

كتبت امنيتي 

رغبتي 

وعدت فما وجدت الا التيه والفقد 

 اخذتني  حيرتي على دروب شائكة

والليل املس , ناعم مخملي   عليه تنساب  احلامي 

حيث الافاقه والسير إلى غير وجهة 

فما من ترحال لعودة أخرى

وجدتك كاالكتاب الذي يملأ الفراغات الرتيبه

نحتت لك ظلا شامخا عاليا  في اعالي الغيم 

اعارني الرعد صوته فناديتك

لعلك تجيء مع شهر نيسان على شكل شقائق النعمان

او على هيئة عطور ملكيه 

Before wandering and before getting lost

In the light of a candle, a star

He calls for the horizon

At the dark ends of the long tunnel of night

I wrote my wish

My desire

I returned and found nothing but loss and loss

  My confusion took me on thorny paths

And the smooth night, soft and velvety, on which my dreams flow

Where you wake up and go to another destination

There is no departure for another return

I found you like a book that fills the monotonous blanks

I carved a lofty shadow for you high in the clouds

The thunder lent me its voice, so I called you

Perhaps you come with the month of April in the form of anemones

Or in the form of royal perfumes

شطرنج chessboard

 رقعة الشطرنج في مقدمتها البيدق وحصان اعرج وفيل احول ووزير يركض بحرية تامه وحده الشاه خائفا ينظر من اعلى القلعة 

The chessboard has a pawn at the front, a lame horse, a cross-eyed elephant, and a minister running completely freely. Only the Shah, frightened, looks on from the top of the castle.

وهج glow

  

اختلط في وهج ذكراي                                               Mixed in the glow of my memory

 خريف العمر وربيعه                                                                    Autumn and spring of life

ورحت صوب  احلام عمري                                           I went towards my life's dreams

 في المشتى ادور دفاها                                          In the winter I turn on her warmth

ليه يا احلام الطفوله ؟                                                  Why,O childhood dreams?

ليه يانياتي الرفيعه ؟                                        Why,O  my good intentions?

ليه خطواتي اسبقتني ؟                                 Why did my steps precede me?

 راح عمري وما لقاها            My life went away and I never found her

  

Forgotten messages

 

You are a very beautiful poem

Then I am on this site or other always lonely

I run away from my chest tightness and from my uncomfortable days

Flee to the book, to the pen, to the scattering of words

There is no family relationship here at all, every spring flower is the daughter of March

I address everything, in a metaphorical language that is sometimes incomprehensible to many, but it does not matter, I will not satisfy all tastes

The prudent of the sign understands, analyzes between the lines and does not question

All I have is this pen, it is also a friend like you

Then it's too late, my fair lady. The years have lulled our resolve, and we have no way of making amends to time. The head is gray, the bones are bent and brittle, and nothing is alive but our sorrows. Our pain is many, and our suffering increases every day.

Things are not as you imagine, my fair lady, and my thoughts about my writing are all about things that hurt us

This bitter truth, your words make me feel guilty. As for the writings I have published here and there, they are phrases for all stages. Sometimes we love someone because of his book or poem, and he may have said it thousands of years ago, and I will send you a poem someone said 4,000 years ago. The inscription is written and the poem is the voice of a girl addressing a young man

(((Search for me until you find me))

I'm in the wilderness and finished uprooting thistles,

Now I will plant a vine.

The fire was burning inside me. I was doused with water.

Love me as you love your little lambs

And you take care of me as you take care of your flock

And look for me until you find me)))

As for departure, we are only in a convoy that is moving us forward, and I am walking with it. I do not know when I will reach the station. As long as everyone is on this journey, we will stay together. 

always

I hope you are always near

always